September 4, 2009
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Just pondering
Do you ever take time to just stop, look around, take inventory and decide to keep or jetison things? I will sometimes do that with stuff in my house. More times than not.. I get rid of it. Somethings I keep. For example, I have kept the dress I wore as I left my wedding for YEARS! I would take it out and look at it and think.. ah… that was a good day. It quit fitting me about a year after we got married. (I wasn’t walking for miles every day like I had in college… so I got a little.. um… too fluffy for the dress.) But I kept it anyway because it was from a happy time. WELL… about 8 months ago, that dress found it’s way to the ARC thrift store. I finally decided that I still had the memory, I have the pictures and someone else can enjoy the dress. It was nice and I didn’t hesitate at all. I think I just had to get there emotionally to let go of it physically.
I’ve been thinking lately that I have changed over the years. Not just physically, (lots of new hairstyles and more stuff) but emotionally too. I watch my daughter and I remember what it was like to be her. I remember laughing at everything… almost all the time. I remember talking a LOT! (maybe not as much as my sister, but still a lot). I remember thinking that I could do anything at all that I wanted to do and doing it. Well ok.. not so much sporty things. I was terrible at sports! I remember being totally free to enjoy life and savor every experience I could. Now I look at myself and I still like to laugh, I just don’t do it as much as I did when I was a kid. I still talk a lot, but I’m ok with being quiet and just BEING. I still think there is so much I can do but I don’t always find time or make the effort to do them. I still stink at sports. That has not changed at all! HA
Maybe that is maturity. Maybe that is responsibility that weighs on you that you didn’t have as a kid. Maybe that is me just turning into a boring person. I look around at my life, take inventory and think to myself, ‘do I need to keep that or get rid of it?’ How do I choose to present myself?
I was thinking about this blog a day or two ago. On the one hand, I think it is great fun to interact with all of you. But on the other hand, do you really care about the mundane things in my life, since that seems to be all I’m posting lately? Am I blogging for my own benefit or because other people expect me to blog? I don’t know. Xanga has a counter thingy that says I’ve been a member for……… some insanely big number of days. I can’t even remember the exact number but it is over 1500 days. WOW! That’s a big number. (followed by won’t you support us by going premium?)
Perhaps, I’ll just enjoy things for what they are. Some things may have to go and somethings I may just have to keep. That is what happens when you take inventory of yourself.
Have a happy day!
Comments (8)
I have much more time to ponder now that my kids are grown and gone. Problems that come now are much more serious, and life is not quite so carefree as when I was young. ~~ We had to “unload” a lot of our life when we moved to Denmark. It was sad for me, but I have to say, now I miss very little of it — at least the THINGS part. I think making this move has really helped me see and understand more about what is important in life. ~~ My husband is a teacher, and he talks and talk and talks. I am more of a counselor, and I like to listen, listen, listen. I love asking a person questions to get them talking about themselves. I love learning more about people. ~~ I have been on Xanga since 2006, and sometimes I wonder if my time here is done. Then I write a post and have people tell me it was something they really needed to hear, or that it blessed them … then I think maybe I will hang around and keep “doing what I do” a little longer! LOL! I have made so many wonderful friends on Xanga, and I would not want to lost touch with them, either. ~~ I do like reading even the mundane things about people’s lives. It makes me happy to read your kids are doing well, and that school is fun to teach and that you love your husband and like to keep a nice house. Call me crazy!
I blog just because.
I enjoy writing things down for future reference too. That is one way I can go back and see what was happening in my life. I enjoy interacting with my friends that I would never have met or talked to in real life. I still enjoy real life. Have a great day and don’t quit.
I enjoy reading about the mundane things too, because that means some people’s lives are going fairly smoothly.
At 71, I don’t have a whole lot of energy for the exciting happy events, and it’s sad to hear about the tragic ones. I don’t think I’m explaining this well, but I know what I mean. You have a happy day too.
thank you for the reminder that i need to continue the process of weeding out the useful and meaningful from the clutter and confusion in my own life. you often offer insights as you chronicle your “mundane life” that i find very valuable and i love how your positive spirit permeates whatever you decide to include in your blog entries…
Some people carry their professional life into a blog. Some people need a blog to project themselves into a different world. I know that writing projects a different person than I am used to thinking what I think I am. So definitely a blog is like introspection, something that we need to see from time to time. So if you are not keeping a physical diary, xanga is a great substitute and it doesn’t take up much space.
You have always had writing skills that expressed you best. And all the other parts of ‘you’ that just bubble over into other peoples life extends your person in a positive way. If it wasn’t for xanga ..Ii would not get to laugh or cry with you about the things you might think are mundane.
A German phrase is..”Don’t throw the baby out with the bath water” Be sure of what is of value when you sort.
Love you!!
Oh! This was a good post! The word fluffy was worth the whole post! I know what I am now – a little fluffy!